CURRENTLY

WORKING ON: Getting myself up in the morning and do some exercise. Yes. I really need to work on that.

THINKING ABOUT: I know mostly we disappointed by the expectation we put on others, but sometimes it’s really hard not to put an expectation into anything. You know society has this structure that make first born or the son in a family a breadwinner once their parents retired and it’s hard for me to accept that mine can’t. I don’t ask them to be a breadwinner; I just want them to carry the responsibility life gives them. Somehow it’s ironically funny to be the last born and accomplished things first and still can make the first born do better. I love my siblings exceptionally, but the way they do life kind of make me sad and worried. There, I think I just need to say it.

READING: I’m halfway to finish The Help by Kathryn Stockett. It’s such a great book. Also, since I start working, I have to leave in the morning and back home at night, ergo I only have little time to read daily newspaper but I’m trying though.

LISTENING TO: Ke$ha, or as my friend said, Kedolarha. LOL. Her new song makes me dance in the morning. LOL.

EATING: Recently doctor told me that my body lack of fruits and veggies. So from that moment I try to eat healthy food everyday and give my body the nutrients she needs. It’s not that I stop eat junk food or anything, I just add more fruit/veggies everyday in what I eat. I think you should too.

THANKFUL FOR: What I have now. Last year I graduate and now I work as a copywriter for a design company. The job I have is something outside my expectation, but it makes me realize, maybe sometimes we have to do things that we never plan. Copywriting is a new challenge to me because it really different from what I do in college, plus I get to learn so many things in advertising industry. What I have to thankful the most is I meet a lot of new amazing people. I’m glad to say that I’m happy with my life.

PLANNING TO: Travel solo. Yes! Last year I plan to go on some trips with my friends but I can only make one trip. So this year I think I’m going to do it solo. I don’t know why I am now so reluctant to asked and persuade my friends to accompany me. And maybe I need to go with myself, meet new people and do new things. Get lost and find myself.

ROMANCE: Have no particular plan with this one. I just go on with whatever happen, I guess. A dear friend once said, what I really need is a person that try from the very beginning and not give up. Agree. There I write it.

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2013

Anne’s Conclusion on Marriage, Love and the crap, I don’t know what I wrote

So days ago I told my mom that I’m gonna be married in my 30s, she’s like, WHAAAT?! And told me the disadvantages of being married after 20s and I was like, pffft…

Well, I always think marriage is a usual thing happens to people. But weirdly, once you become 20, it becomes some kind of pressure by the society and several parents. well, at least in my society and parents. My question is; what is the right reason for someone to get married? Is it for the sake of your parent’s demand, society pressure or your own will to do it? What it takes for someone to be sure that she/he found the one person to live with, bear monsters and die eventually? How those avoid boredom of each other?

Young Queen Victoria thought marriage should be a treat to a girl. My sister once said that being married to someone is not only so you can bear children but also to find a friend for life. I recall my lecturer said love ends when marriage begins. Well, does a successful marriage always begin with love?

I heard so many definitions about it in songs, movies, poems and somehow those make the word ‘love’ sounds overrated. Either it’s too cliché or too miserable, only a few make sense to me. Sometimes I thought love nowadays is just a product you sell on Valentine day. You have to agree that most of bestselling novels, songs, movies etc are related to love. *What? Yes, I like love songs and romantic novels, they help me dramatize my life.* Love produces money. Plus, I often find people said they love this and that then get too excited about it, but months later they just doing the same pattern I easily read.

The love I know, maybe, is a feeling that keeps you coming back. It stays. It grows bigger as the time goes. Like I love my family. You may say that you love your parents the moment you were born but I need a process to love them this much *hug the universe*. A long process that now leaves me at the point that no matter how much I loathe them, I end up want to make them happy.

Ugh. Words often make everything more dangkal. Well, people can have their own definition about love. Whatever.

You know one of the reasons I hate become an adult is there are so many things to think about. Life suddenly is not as easy as choosing what kind of candy I want to eat today.

So my conclusion is, blah, I’ don’t know, I’M TOO YOUNG TO THINK ABOUT THIS. These just several things crossed my mind and thought I should write it. Enjoy the crap. Bye.

Life starts here (?)

July 25, 2012.

I finished my 4 years academic study in English Literature.

I could blab all day about how happy I am and how proud I am of myself. Yeah. I’m that narcissistic. But sound in my head told me that this is not just about happiness. Start from that day, a door to a new phase of life waits to be open.

I used to thought about adult life as something far away, not ever gonna be mine. In fact, we’re not young forever.

I always know what I want, who I am and what I need. But I live with people, people I love and responsibilities related to them. I want to be happy and I want them to be happy too. Oh, as if life is simply about work hard, play hard and pleased only myself.

Well. *sigh*

Maybe I just engage in too many conversations about adult life. Maybe I just over think everything. Maybe all I need is learn how to fly. High. I’m just 22 for God’s sake.

It must hide somewhere

They said it’s important to study sign as it’ll help you to see things better, or give you clue to anything happen next, or find anything you want to find. Maybe that’s why they created Semiotics.

I’d say, we live in a world full of signs. Some are easy to read, while some are hard, like the traffic light and your body alarm when you’re about to sick. Somehow the existence of signs only lead you to confusion, maybe because you’re too reluctant to figure out, or you’re kind of a slow reader, or maybe you just simply don’t realize. If you’re smart, you’ll know, follow it and figure it out. But when you’re not lucky, the time you’re aware of the sign, you’re just too late.

So, what are you going to do? After all, life’s about making choices and taking chances, right?

Here I help you with the options:

1. You sit back, relax and wait for the sign to reveal itself.
2. Take the risk, be silly and find out.
3. Be wise. Learn your lesson from the past and then decide what to do.
4. Think again. There’s always a possibility that you see wrong.
5. Move on.
6. Never take these options at all.

My Thesis and I.

Never ending Chapter I.

Acceptance

Since yesterday was my birth day, I think it’s alright to write a quite wise post (well, if you want say so). Not that both have a relation.

There.

Recently I found one word that pretty much makes my life easier, it’s “Acceptance”. You can look up on the dictionary for its accurate meaning. If you ask me, I would say, acceptance means on some point of your life you must know and realize that many things are beyond your control, you can’t always capable of dealing with a situation that grow out to be what you don’t want but you don’t regret, you’re not looking back. It’s hard at first, of course you’re gonna be upset or sad or feel those kind of feelings, but you learn to agree with what happened, then find a joy out of it.

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Life’s full of surprises.

By writing this doesn’t mean that I’m a pro because every day I’m learning. I hope you all too and be happy. x